Dr. Me

My eyes come open
And the black fades to bright light
I lay nude
Spread across a cold unloving table,
My body aches
And in my veins is a drug of pain
All around is white and clean
The air smells of cold and rubbing alcohol
I try to move, but to no prevail
Silence engulfs me and I scream outloud
But not a sound comes
And then, uncontrolled, my hands and arms come alive
Tarring and scratching my fingers come to my chest
My agony goes unnoticed as I tare out my own heart
The first layers of skin and muscle are thick and smooth in my hands
The bones of my rib cage are dry and alive
I feel the life, my life, in them
As I snap the cage in half
All I have are the screams in my head as I sever my own still beating heart
It's warm and full
And tears over take my eyes,
As the pulse begins to die
My arms go dead, uncontrolled again, and fall and hang from the edge of the table
A still live plop comes from my heart
And then a pitter-patter as it roles away
And this is where I could take no more
All the torture made me die
And all there is, is a dead churning black
Filled with my life, my words, my thoughts and all that was my past